September 18, 2020

I am grateful to those who can write or speak honestly about their battle with mental illness. The above post from Sameer Vasta popped up in my feed today. It isn’t easy to be open about the things that go on in our heads, but what I can say to those who do, it is so valuable. Thank you.

August 25, 2020

Am finding that my time spent on meditation seems to be a cue for my brain to run through lists.

August 18, 2020

Am working my way through the back catalogue of The Hilarious World of Depression podcast. It’s funny, moving and encouraging. Occasionally, someone says something which really nails it in some way. John Moe, the host, on moving to a place of recognition and healing; …there’s a sadness, I think, that comes with feeling healthier, mentally. You uncover some truths, you accept them. And that lets you stop doing all the frantic things you’ve been doing for so many years to run from the problems in your mind, the facades you’ve been putting up. Read more

August 13, 2020

In regard to taking meds, I’d like to run a control version of myself in parallel so that I can identify what and if the meds are doing anything useful. I make notes about effects that I attribute to them. I then read the notes later and wonder if they actually have anything to do with the meds at all.

August 3, 2020

Have been finding it difficult to write anything of a personal nature at the moment. A few days ago I started writing about how, since the start of the lockdown, I have finally reached a kind of equilibrium. Adaptation to the new normal, at least, the current new normal. It almost feels like emotional numbness. Maybe it is. While here in the SW we have experienced little of Covid itself, living with the lockdown measures has been a strain, as it has for everyone else. Read more

Stephen James

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